18 December 2005 In my twenties, I caught myself striving for inner peace. What a delicious paradox! Of course, it’s not possible to attain peace by striving. And yet, my ambition was not entirely counterproductive. The intensity with which I had once pursued success and acclaim in science was diverted to the pursuit of enlightenment. The regularity of my daily disciplines of yoga and meditation were useful, and it was ambition that kept me on track. Over time, the practices had their effect, eroding my dissatisfaction, undermining my self-importance, softening my intolerance. Today I ask: Is it possible to have ambition and peace at the same time? Inner peace implies perfect acceptance of, and satisfaction with the world as it is right now. Is there still room for passion in the pursuit of justice? for the creation of moving works of art, or for augmenting human knowledge? My answer for now is that the conflict is illusory. Progress toward inner peace is not inimical to ambition, and lightening my inner dissatisfaction has helped to make me a more effective person. But you can ask me again when I get there. - Josh Mitteldorf | ||||||
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